I can’t do anything.
August 20th, 1992. A beautiful and strong woman was born. An inspiration to many people all around the world. She passed through really dark sides, but didn’t give up. And now she’s 20 and stronger than ever. And she’s the reason why we STAY STRONG.
You know, a lot of people see that she smiled, singing and being successful, do you think it is easy to be her? No, not really. She suffered bullying when she was younger, the “friends” of the class simply said “god, you’re fat” and after a while she began to suffer from eating disorders. During childhood she had bulimia and fought against it. over time, this same girl began to mutilate and conceal the habit with makeup and bracelet, she kept it a secret. At age 15 she made a movie and it became a teen star. And in an event the scars were featured in a photo that everyone could see that she kept his obscure problem itself and not his parents and family nearest knew. She told everyone that she was fine and continued to work and doing series. Soon after came the sequel of the film that becoming famous, she entered into a relationship with the protagonist of Camp Rock, Joe Jonas. They began a tour with sold out, and had more than 6 million fans on Twitter. Her life seemed like a dream, but their internal problems worsened. During the tour the relationship with Joe ended, but the romantic duets continued in the shows. With that, she was cutting and she wasn’t eating anything, had serious internal problems and kept everything to herself. In an essay she physically assaulted one of her dancers. Demi left the tour and went to a treatment center for women. There she received a diagnosis, she was bipolar. After three months of intense therapy she was ready for a new beginning. “For the first time in my life I began to feel. It was such a good experience not let your feelings aside and ignore them. I’m grateful now because I’m feeling, you know?” She said about her experience at the treatment center. The cuts on her wrists and left scars healed, so she decided to get a tattoo written STAY STRONG, to cover those marks. Well, that’s the history of this gorgeous girl you see on stage smiling and thinking she’s okay. This is the story of Demetria Devonne Lovato, Demi Lovato or simply, a girl smiling and strong. Now she’s twenty years of smiles and also tears, twenty years of struggle against internal problems, twenty years of war.
That’s her story, that’s what made her what she is right now.
20 years? Seriously Demi? Seriously you’ve got 20 years of sluggishness, beauty, maturity, perfection? Seriously that beautiful smile full of teeth now has 20 years? Seriously, these eyes have already 20 years? I’m not going to come with that “Wow, went so fast” because it would be cliché and not real, I wasn’t there when you were born, when you were 1 month alive.
It seems like yesterday that my princess started on Barney and Friends, I saw her singing This Is Me! and now our little princess is turning 20 years old. It was 20 years ago, on August 20, 1992, 02:34 pm Ace Paramed hospital in Albuquerque, New Mexico that our diva was born, child of Dianna De La Garza y Patrick Lovato. Even through all the problems Demi has never denied that a smile to their fans, but no one knew what she was hiding behind that smile. I have no words to say how much I love you Demetria, how much you inspired me and inspires me every day, how much you are present in my daily life.
Reading about you and your past and realizing that even with everything, you never stopped smiling, I realized I was face to face with a warrior, a warrior who would transform my life and my personality. In fact you made me become a stronger person and made me realize and taught me so much and helped me with so many other. Demi, I honestly don’t know how I can thank you. You showed me the true value of a smile, a hug, a song. Your songs. Wow, your music. Fucking hell, your music. Seriously, her songs are like medicine for my heart. There are days when I wake up wanting to sleep to don’t have to experience certain things. These days I take your CD or my phone and put it to play. Skyscraper, Believe in Me and to finish Unbroken. With that, I’m a little bit healed and ready for another day. You taught me to talk bitch. And you also taught Maddie… incidentally, I always wondered what Dianna thought about that.
From this day on you are not stopped falling on stage, to fly the microphones. And you know who I learned to don’t care about the opinion of others? With you! It was with you that I learned that other people’s opinions are not worth more than a banana peel. It was with you that I learned to go over all those who want to see me underneath. It was with you that I learned to be strong, to be who I am without worrying whether or not the world will like it, because it was you who once said that to be what one is makes you perfect for someone. I’m still waiting for that someone who will find me perfect the way I am, but I have faith that this person will come to me as well as thousands of Lovatics come to you thinking you perfect the way you are. Thanks for everything, thanks for saving my life, thanks for being here when no one is. Thank you for inspiring me and making me strong when nothing is going right. Thanks for giving me hope, giving me the strength for live my life every single day.
What can I say, I can’t believe you are 20 now my baby, I can’t. I have to thank you so much, so much for a lot of things. Thanks to you I’m here now, alive, you’re one of the reasons I’m still alive. You saved my life. I don’t care about what people say, I’ll never leave you. You’re a woman now, not a child. You were a little girl who suffered with the trials of a woman with one of the strongest voices in the world, one of the women with the most beautiful body the world, the woman with the most beautiful smile in the world, the woman I love more than myself, the woman who I will always support.
There are people that treat you like crazy for cutting and because rehab, and all your problems, but I don’t care, I don’t care because I have the same shit and I don’t care about if people think I’m crazy, we have to keep going, together. We pass for so many things and I’m saying ‘we’ because we are part of all of the things that you been through, we are together on this… words are not enough to say how thankful and proud I am of you, my little girl just look at you, look how amazing/perfect/talented/beautiful you are and I’m so happy to say that you are my role model, I just love you so much, thanks for change my life and millions of lifes too, thanks for all the memories and the laughs and thanks for the many times that you make me say ‘Fuck! I’m lesbian for Demi Lovato’.
You’ve grown. Who knew that my princess would one day become a great queen? The girl all star and shirts with rock bands on them became the woman who wears today high heels and glitter hair green and blue. I confess that I will miss those 19 years. I confess that I miss Jemi. I miss your hair and bangs of the characters from both Camp Rock, Sonny with a Chance. I miss the time of Don’t Forget and Here We Go Again, but even so I’m very proud and glad to know that the unbroken woman is well, healthy and strong. You managed to prevent suicides, and inspired more than 8 million people. And at just 19 years old (and now 20) taught us all that we are capable of everything, the important thing is to have faith. And when you fall, get up as a Skycraper and rise from the ground. Don’t give up, I am strong, I am beautiful, I have enough capacity to carry what I want, and most of all: I’m not alone in this. You taught me all this, you know why I love you so much? You taught me to smile even on bad days, and most of my smiles almost all of these reasons, you were, you are. It was my little baby girl, and now is my woman (but you’re still my baby girl, huh) I’ll never leave. I want to see you so strong, beautiful and even in my 80 years or older. I know you may don’t know of my existence, and I know that someday I will meet you, and I never give up, why don’tcha FOLD in the words of my dictionary.
I still remember the day of the concert: 28, April, 2012. Yes, almost 4 months, in 8 days, 4 months. I can’t believe I really saw you so close, it’s still unbelievable. It was the best of my day yet, and it will always be one of the most important days that happened in my existence. Now, I can tell I met you. Not because you hugged me or saw me, but because I saw you, I heard your voice, I saw you… so close. Your smile, you saying ‘Argentina’, a lot of memories that I’m never gonna forget. It was so fast, but I don’t care, I was so good (perfect) because you were there singing for us. That day, Skyscraper had more meaning that ever. And Fix a Heart, too. Those were the songs that helped me to keep me going and something changed that night. I’m not gonna say I’m ‘okay’ now because that’s not true, but I’m a little bit better everytime I remember everything and I remember you, there. I love you and would do anything to see a genuine smile on your face. Cause I love it when you really smile. I love that when you give your laughter, that even is the cutest worldwide. I love when you play on the hair GYHAB. I love when you rise in like a Skyscraper. I love when you shake your body on Who’s That Boy and when you play your guitar in Don’t Forget. I was there to watch it live, I saw all those things I love live, I saw you.
You, Demi, are a bright star in my dark sky that gave birth to so many other stars light up my life. You opened my doors. Or rather, you opened my eyes to things without you, I would never see. You made me a better person, a happier and more cheerful. One more person I am. Your history, your difficulties only served to lift you up even more and like you, I want to solve mine too. I want to be like you. Want to have your strength, your inner and outer beauty, want your transparency, I want you in my bed. Oops, screwed up the romance. I don’t care, you know why? Because my love for you is so, a little romance, a little privacy and a bit of naughtiness. Because I’m not just a Lovatic, I’m a Lesbian for Demi, Strong For Demi.
I just wanna say thank you, thank you for all the smiles and for all the good moments, the things that you teached me, I wanna thank you for you being my role model, I wanna thank you because you’re my angel, and I have no idea what would be today without you. I don’t even know what to write, because I have so many feelings and so many things that I would like to say, but I’m proud to say that I love you. I really miss the little girl that you was, but at the same time I’m so proud of the woman that you are today. I have to deal with a lot of things but I know that if you can do it, than I can do it, I’ll stay strong because of you, and I’ll make it worth all what you taught me, thank you my little precious angel. Thank you, for all the words that fit together perfectly to me and helped me when no one else knew what to do. I hope that you’ll have an awesome birthday, because you truly deserve it.
For all this and for all the other reasons that are saved in my heart is why I love you and I’m here wishing you happy birthday and I promise that in 20 years, on your 40th birthday, I will continue feeling the way I do now, and even stronger. I promise to always be by your side, even if not physically. I swear my undying love for you and I swear I’ll always be here for you for anything you need.
I LOVE YOU, DEMETRIA DEVONNE LOVATO HART, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
Sincerely, me (sexmetriaboobvato)
Happy 20th Birthday Demetria Devonne Lovato; your not a teenager anymore.